Don’t Read This Blog Post
Unless you want to hear the truth. Don’t read this blog post unless you’re ready for some of my personal truth.
Truth: It’s been three months since I wrote a blog post.
Reason: I left the job God provided me that caused me to leave my home and move to Cortez and took a new one.
That sounds simple enough doesn’t it?
But in reality, like most things in life, it’s very complicated.
Do you love that line?
Because when “it’s complicated” things are messy. Mixed up. And difficult. Right?
Nod your head back and forth. Come on now . . . forward . . . and now backwards.
Yes, they are usually difficult.
But isn’t that life? Messy, mixed up, complicated, and exhilarating?
Frankly, all that does right now is make me tired.
How about you?
I’m ready to simplify my life.
But as of the writing of this blog post, mine is anything but simplified.
It’s better, but not simplified.
What Brought On This Change
What brought on this life altering change you may ask.
Why on earth did Kristi pack up and move from her home and ranch in Hotchiss to take a job in human services and then leave it after only three years?
Trust me, I asked myself that very question a thousand times.
And you faithful, amazing, loyal, loving supporters, and any newbie that happened so stop by this blog post, deserve to know the truth.
Frankly, it all started when the Director that I moved here for and loved working for, suddenly retired.
The County hired a new young gun and he is transforming the human services department.
A friend of mine said to me the other day, “It looks like you walked into a high school when you go in there now!”
Apparently the new management seems to prefer a younger personnel, and since I’m older, when an opportunity came my way, it was time for me to move on.
I was presented an opportunity to try my hand at becoming a real estate appraiser and I jumped at it.
However. . .
Change is never easy.
And this change has been extremely difficult. Having been raised in the real estate business I thought I knew the in’s and out’s of what appraising would entail.
Boy was I wrong!
It is a very difficult profession.
But I’m learning, and I love it.
However, learning requires a great deal of time and tremendous effort, especially for someone with a slightly off kilter brain.
My daughter says I’m just plain crazy, but I really do have brain damage and the car wreck last year seems to have rattled it again. So learning a new and difficult career has proven to be a tremendous challenge.
But so worth it!
It is no excuse for my loooong hiatus between blog posts, it’s just the truth.
I apologize. I will try to be better and write more often.
My next truth is – I miss writing these blog posts and getting to visit with you.
I miss hearing your thoughts about my thoughts.
But in truth, I have been working so hard that when I would steal a few minutes and sit down at the computer to try to write a blog post my brain was so exhausted nothing came out.
And to be honest, I was so empty I couldn’t even pray.
And for me . . . that is bad!
To be totally truthful, it was down right scary.
I have spent many years growing in my faith so I’ve aggravated many deserts.
For those of you new to this blog or to a faith-walk, a “desert” is a time in your spiritual life when it’s as though you are walking in a desert. It is dry, desolate, empty, and almost lifeless.
I’m accustom to a lively relationship with God. A close, personal relationship where I feel His love for me and experience miracles on a daily basis, realize it, and am incredibly thankful for it.
But during a desert, that intimacy stops.
It’s as though you’re in a vacuum devoid of emotion.
Surrounded by glass walls. You can see out, but nothing spiritual gets through.
It feels as though the lights have been turned off in your heart.
And as I struggled to learn my new chosen career, to learn how to communicate with my boss, and how to get good enough I could actually pay my bills, I fell into a desert.
A serious desert.
As I write this blog post I’m watching my fingers and thinking I should see blood. Typing, researching, working 16, 18, 20 hours a day to try to get a report done on time it felt as though I was crawling, no clawing my way through that desert.
But the great thing about going through something like that, is you are doing just that.
Going THROUGH it.
You’re not stuck there for the rest of your days.
You are making your way through the bad times. Through the hard times.
And just like an emerald oasis shimmering at the end of a dry desert, joy, peace, and love rise up out of a spiritual or emotional desert.
I am coming to my oasis.
I am so happy to be entering my oasis!
But more than that, I’m happy to be sharing time and emotion with you again! And thrilled beyond words that you are still here and didn’t give up on me! Thank You!
And I’m very excited to share with you what my upcoming series will be about.
I’ve hinted at it some on my author page on Facebook.
Even mentioned it here in a couple earlier blog posts.
We’re going to examine trust.
On an intimate, up close, and personal level.
Have you ever had a trust issue?
Has someone ever broken your trust? Or, have you broken someone else’s trust?
Do you know how to trust?
And the biggest question of all, do you know how to trust God?
Not the surface trust . . . but the deep, blood and guts kind of trust?
If not, or even if you do, I hope you’ll join us for this next series because I’ve very excited to see where it will lead us!
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Take care and God bless you!
Thank you again,