Happy Mother’s Day!
Mother’s Day means different things to each one of us. In all honesty it means different things to me. It brings my incredible joy, but makes me cry, sometimes at the same time.
I lost my Mom almost 25 years ago. I was 29. She was my rock. Without her I had no direction, nothing solid behind my back, no wind beneath my wings. I lost my best friend and most avid supporter.
One of my most cherished memories was going to see her and jumping up and sitting on her dryer in the kitchen. We visited while she cooked, cleaned, or just puttered. We talked about everything in the world with me sitting on that dryer.
Flowers For Mom
She loved flowers. She had them all over her kitchen and a huge flower/garden spot out behind the house that fed us when I was a kid. As us kids left the home the garden grew smaller and the variety of flowers grew much larger. She shared her love of flowers with me. If she would have only shared her green thumb so I could keep them alive and blooming!
Mother’s Day makes me melancholy for Mom. I miss her terribly. I still buy her Mother’s Day cards and put them in zip-lock bags and pin them with her flowers to the grave. It’s killing me to not be close enough to do that this year. I know I’m not the only one that can’t take my flowers to my mother’s grave. My heart goes out to each and every one of you experiencing the same thing.
Mother’s Day Joy
But Mother’s Day also brings me incredible joy! When I think of my daughter, Mika, and now my coming grand daughter. I know Mom is looking down on us and is thrilled!
The joys of a mother’s heart are sung in the words of her children and grand children.
The other day Mika and I were talking about how her life will change after the baby arrives. She was unsure about so many things. My only real words to her were to not worry, mother-nature takes over and we all do fine. I added that she won’t remember what her life was like before the baby. This confused her. I tried to put into words what happens when you hold that baby in your arms for the first time. But I can not articulate the depth of emotion it creates.
Afterward, I thought more about my comment. I remember my life before my daughter, but it took on a new purpose, balance, and love after she was born. It as thought she filled all the empty spots I didn’t even realize were empty.
Do you agree with me? Can you put that love into words? Please share in the comments section if you can. Not just for me, but for all mothers, daughters, dads, and sons out there.
How Important Family Photos Are
As I wrote this and was looking for pictures of my Mom I realized what is missing in my new house. Why I don’t feel comfortable here. Suddenly I realized I have no photos out. They’re all packed. I have no photos of my Mom, Dad, Mika, family. No one. Since I don’t know how long I will be living here I didn’t unpack much. Most of my things are in storage. But after writing this I’m headed to find my photos and get my family around me again!
We need that love around us! It’s our protection from the daily buffeting we take from the world. That love is our harbor of protection.
Photos may not be our loved one in the flesh, but they smile that person’s love back into our lives.
Is Your Mom in Heaven?
I wish each one of you a Happy Mother’s Day. I hope each of you can feel love and be loved this Mother’s Day. It’s a special day to reflect on love, life, new birth, and even death.
There is a special place in my heart for each of you with a Mom in Heaven. We experience love on a different level. I’m wrapping you in my arms and hugging you right now! I know our Moms look down on us from above and still send us their love. I can feel it! Can you?
May God Bless and keep each of you!
Happy Mother’s Day!
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