Do You Ever Need More Patience or More Confidence?
Boy I sure do! Especially this week!
The reason you have not heard for me for a couple of weeks is because I’m moving. Yes, moving. I have been offered a good job in the same town where my daughter lives, and now I need more patience, confidence, and a lot more sleep!
Is it? I don’t know. This is my home, it’s incredibly beautiful, and I am extremely sad to leave it.
But, Delta County did not renew my contract, my other businesses have suffered because of the economy, and the jobs in Delta County are few and far between, and don’t pay very well. So I’m between a rock and a very hard place.
There are so many what if’s in my life. What if I already had a book contract, what if I had never left the County job in the first place, what if my business had not crashed after the election, what if people had more confidence in the economy and were willing to spend money on my natural health products, what if, what if, what if.
But reality is, all these things are fact. So I have been praying for a job and a very good one was literally dropped in my lap, no application, they called me out of the blue. And it happens to be in the same town as where my daughter lives. What a coincidence.
But then came the nightmare of finding a place to live, for not just me, but also for my horses. So for two weeks it has been a mad house of praying for the right place, calling, calling, calling, trusting God will provide, and packing, even though I didn’t have a place. It has been Crazy! And talk about needing patience! I felt like I was going to jump out of my skin!
Add to all this, I needed a double dose of patience for my relationship with my daughter who was scared about me living that close, worried because I didn’t have a house to live in, mad that I was leaving the ranch and all my dreams, and afraid I was abandoning our goals with the horses. All this boiled down to . . . she was worried about her mom.
But the place I needed the most patience turned out to be my relationship with God. I will confess, I was mad at God. How could a loving God allow this to happen to me? I have worked very hard the past five years to do what I thought He had led me to do! How could this happen?
I had left the County two years ago believing God was leading me to do my ProArgi9 business full time and save lives with this incredible product. The business was growing wonderfully, then the election came and my business plummeted. Luckily, I was able to go back to work for the County part-time and it was perfect. I worked both jobs and was doing great. Then the County pulled the rug out from under me and didn’t renew my contract. And I got mad at God.
I had so many questions, so many doubts, but the reality is, God is still in control, He really is still taking care of me, and everything really will work out for the best. All I have to do is trust and have patience as He works out His Highest and Best for me. His plans are higher than my plans. My job is to just keep moving forward, and have trust and patience that He is working all this out.
Have you ever had a time when you were struggling? Have you ever been mad at God? How did that work out? I hope you will share in the Comments Section below because frankly, I need to hear your stories to help build my confidence and patience as I walk this out.
Thank you and God bless!
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