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Is Trust Shattered or Sacred?

Continued from yesterday’s post:

Is Trust Shattered or Sacred? If you haven’t been reading along with us, I recommend you click the follow links and read the previous posts, otherwise this post won’t make sense:

The Easter 2017 Trust Series:

And there are links to the Entire Trust Series at the bottom of the post so you can join us as we learn about trust.

Okay, on to today’s segment of our story –

Don’t Trust Your Own Eyes

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Don’t Trust Your Eyes

“I think we should wait and pray to see what the truth is and how and what we can trust. Because, right now, I don’t trust my own ears or eyes.”

Silence.

An increasingly angry mob is stunned into utter silence.

After several moments a child whimpers in the dark. Those close by shush it. No one else breaths.

Every eyeball in the cave is pointed at us. Even in the dark.

You stand there tall and defiant as I swallow hard.

It’s cool in the cave but a bead of sweat trickles down my neck.

I’m getting light headed again.

All I can think is please someone say something.

Silence Broken

At last the same voice that called for Mary Magdalene to be stoned breaks the silence, “Yes. As you say, we need to pray and allow the truth to be revealed. None of us know what to do or say in a situation like this.”

You begin, “Our Father, who art in Heaven…”

And the entire cave joins in.

Now the hair is standing up on the back of my neck, no longer in fear, but in anticipation and exhilaration!

As you pray I keep wondering could it be true. Could Jesus really be alive?

The cave echoes “Amen and Amen” as you finish the prayer.

Stopped In My Tracks

I first heard Jesus say that prayer a couple years ago. It was powerful then, and more so now. Inspired, I turn toward the mouth of the cave. As I take my first running step my arm gets jerked behind me and I’m spun back face to face with you.

“What? Why did you grab me?”

“You can’t go.”

“What do you mean I can’t go? And how do you know where I was going?”

“I know you better than you know yourself.”

“No you don’t.”

“You were going to try to find Jesus.”

“And why can’t I?”

“Because we just prayed.”

“I know we prayed, that’s what made me want to go find Him. I started to believe He is alive.”

“We have to wait now.”

“I don’t want to wait.”

“We must. The others are now looking for us to guide them and we must trust that if Jesus is alive, He, or someone close to Him, will come tell us. They know we are here.”

“Well . . . we could . . . act as intermediaries between His disciples and everyone here in the cave. That way the others could stay here and be safe. And we can go interview the Marys and get more information.”

“No.”

A Move

“Come on, don’t you want to know? Aren’t you curious?”

“Well of course.”

“I knew you did. So why can’t we go?”

“Because Jesus would want us to stay here, take care of the others in the cave and keep them safe. If we leave, some of them will want to follow us, and that could get them killed. Would Jesus want that?”

“Okay, I hate to admit it, but you’re right. Now we have to trust that if He is alive the truth will be revealed. So . . . what are we gonna do in the mean time?”

You look over at your family, gathered against the back of the cave. Your sisters, both young moms holding their babies, your Grandmother bent with age, standing.

I sense a move coming. “Can we at least move closer to the mouth of the cave so if someone comes with news we can be at the front, instead of the back of the line in hearing it?”

You shake your head.

“No? Why not?”

You don’t even bother to answer me. Your cousin has gathered the rest of your family. Quietly you take your Grandmother’s hand to help her. Without speaking, we move as a group to an opening in the side of the cave, away from the mass of people at the back, but no closer to the front. Once through the small entrance, it reveals a large open area, like a cave within a cave. It’s much darker than the main cave, but is far more spacious. Plus, there are several small children with the group and this will reduce the chance that any soldiers would hear them playing and find the cave.  If they did, everyone here would be in danger.

The thought of the soldiers reminds me of Pilate. I wonder what he and his the soldiers will do if Jesus is alive. He was the one that stood Jesus out on the Gabbatha (Stone Pavement) in his palace and allowed the crowd to insist on crucifying him. I wonder how Rome will react to that if Jesus is alive.

A wave of doubt washes over me. The excitement of moments ago, ebbs and I’m again questioning how He could be alive.

If I could just sneak out and talk to Mary. . .

 

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Can We Trust God on Maundy Thursday?

What Does Trusting God Have To Do With Thursday?

Trust God on a Thursday? What’s that got to do with anything?

I’ll be honest, this is a spur of the moment post. Most of mine are planned, worked on, modified, let sit for a while, read and reread, I labor over just the right photo, just the right link. All that weird stuff.

I know we have been in the trust God series, but today, I want to talk with you about what is on my heart.

Trust God Everyday

I have been one day ahead all week. So I started out the day thinking it was good Friday. I was heavy hearted and in prayer. Then I realized it was Thursday.

It was a relief, but I’m still heavy hearted because it’s Thursday.

Also known as “Maundy Thursday”. Which means “Holy Thursday”. Or the Thursday before Easter.

If you have ever heard me speak, you know I like to research the Greek and Latin meanings of a word to grasp the depth of what that word means. The Greek word for “Maundy” is “Hagios” which means sacred or holy.  The Latin word for “Maundy” comes from the Latin word Mandatum (itself from the verb Mandare), which is translated “commandment.” 

Therefore, we can grasp that Jesus was sharing a sacred and holy commandment that we commemorate the Last Supper.

For those new to this whole Jesus thing, the Last Supper was Jesus’ final meal before He was crucified. It is when He shared the sacraments of the bread and the wine and instructed all believers “to do this in remembrance of me” (Luke 22:19 and 1st Corinthians 24 -25) . Sacrament is defined as a religious ceremony or act done by believers in Jesus Christ that is regarded as an outward and visible sign of inward and spiritual divine grace.

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Bouveret’s Last Supper

(This is not the picture most of us are familiar with, but to me, it is a far truer depiction of what that “upper room” might have looked like at Jesus’ last meal. You can learn more about the artist, Pascal Dagnan-Bouveret here and the painting by clicking here.)

Why Does This Matter?

So, why am I telling you about this today?

Because today, I want you to stop and consider history. Think about what was happening in Jerusalem over 2000 years ago TODAY.

And think about the fact that Jesus knew His entire life, at least His adult life, that He was born to die.

He did that because He loves us.

He said, “If you have seen me you have seen the Father (or for our purposes today, God),” John 14:9.

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So let me ask, do you think you can trust God?

I do.

Our Lord Jesus was willing to be born, to live, and to die for you and for me.

I hope you are starting to see how deeply you can trust God and our Lord Jesus Christ.

And can that trust become the foundation for all our trust?

I say yes.

Do you?

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Why Trust Matters

How Trust Effects Our Lives

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When You Trust God

Hello! I’m so glad you’re here! It’s really chilly this morning so I invite you to pull up a chair, grab a cup of something warm, and join me for a visit.

If you’re new to the blog, you’ve joined us in the midst of a personal experience story about how to trust God when life throws you a serious curve ball. You are more than welcome to jump right in here! But I would like to encourage you to go back at least four posts to the start of the real estate purchase part of the story. Or even at the beginning of the “Miracles Series”. It will help this post make more sense. But you are more than welcome to start right here!

If you decide to read the earlier posts there are links at the end of this post.

For you that have been following along, I have a favor to ask. If you’re enjoying this story, please leave a comment. Even if it’s just one word! That way I know you’re reading it! And hopefully enjoying it!

Also, if you have trouble posting your comment please let me know! Please send me an email to kristi@kristiross.com and let me know! Some people are having trouble posting comments. THANK YOU!!

Ok, let’s get back to our story!!

The Deal Was Dead

From our story last week you know the real estate deal was dead.  I had given up.

Late Wednesday afternoon my lender called and said neither the title company or the sellers agent had called him to confirm the closing. The funds for the loan come from Washington DC so he had to request the money at least two days in advance. Since no one had called to confirm the closing, and there still was no agreement on who was paying for the survey, he had not ordered funds. There was no way to get the money here to close on Friday.

He went on to add that since it was the sellers agents fault the funds hadn’t been requested, if the sellers would agree to move the closing date to April 1st or later, my interest rate would go down.

But when my real estate sister called the seller’s agent to notify her of the funding situation, she went ballistic!

On top of all this turmoil, that the woman of the couple selling, hand wrote me a very hurtful letter about how I was making their life miserable and I had personally caused her to be hospitalized with and intestinal problem. She asked me to never speak to her or her husband again – and hand delivered it to my work!

Add all this to the survey stalemate, I was done.

DONE

My sister and I had yet another long talk about the situation and told her I was tired of the fighting, tired of the stress.

I was done.

The deal was done.

Please notify the seller’s agent.

Then I sent a text the seller husband and apologized for destroying their life.

Not 20 seconds later my phone rang – it was him.

He had no idea his wife had written me the letter. He apologized. He explained they had several other issues going on at the same time and it was just more stress than she could deal with right then. She had developed a tummy problem and ended up dehydrated. The dehydration caused her to be hospitalized, not me.

I told him about the funds not getting requested. He said if I would agree to pay for the survey he would agree to close on the 1st.

And just like that we were back on.

I called my sister, she called the other realtor back, and told her the seller had called me, and just that quickly the closing was back on, and scheduled on April 1st, and my interest rate dropped.

How Does God Work?

In mysterious ways!

That entire mess saved me over 1 1/2 percent on my interest rate. That was a chunk of money!

Was I tested? Was this an exercise in learning to trust God more?

Absolutely!

Five days later we closed and God blessed me with this gorgeous property!

I am still in awe of what God has done in my life in the past two years. What He is still doing!

When Should You Trust God?

When you trust God miracles are the norm. He moves mountains when you truly trust God.

When there is no way, trust God?

When there is no hope, trust God!

Give yourself to Him and simply trust God!

And He will definitely show up!

Now I live in my own little slice of paradise! Here are a few pictures of my new place:

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The Place of Many Rainbows!

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The hay meadow

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The Wisteria on the back porch

 

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Pepper fetching a stick in the front yard

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My blind dog is in Heaven on earth!

God’s Place

If there’s one thing I hope you take away from this incredible story, I hope it is to trust God!

Trust Him with everything in your life.

This property is not mine. It’s His! I’m just a care taker here. In the human world I would never have been able to have this place.

But because God stepped in and moved mountains, here I am.

It literally takes my breath away every day.

I would love to post hundreds of photos of it because every day I see it from a new light, a new vantage point, and am stunned that I live here.

When you trust God and allow Him to guide your steps, you will be blessed!

I guarantee it!

But you can’t manipulate it.

You have to have faith and learn to let go and let God.

His ways are higher than our ways.

I hope you have enjoyed this story of how God has worked in my life over the past three years.  If you missed any post, the list is below.

If this story touched you in any way, please leave a comment and let me know.  Your feedback is what keeps me writing!

The Future

Be on the lookout for a Veterans Day post in the next couple days.

I know it’s late, but I didn’t want to interrupt this final post of the real estate purchase.

Looking forward to visiting with you!

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And remember to trust God!

Previous Miracle Posts:

Post #1  How To Experience  Miracles in Your Life

Post #2  Who Wants Miracles In Their Life?

Post #3  What Happens When Miracles Don’t Look Pretty

Post #4  How Tragedy Can Create Miracles

Post #5  When Miracles Bring Transformation

 Post #6  What Do Miracles Look Like

Post #7  Are You In Need Of A Miracle?

Post #8  Where Can You Find A Miracle

Post #9  Miracles Keep Coming

Post #10 How To Step Into The Miracle Zone

Post #11    3 Simple Steps to Miracles In Your Life
Post #12   3 Steps to Holiday Miracles and Peace
Post #13   How Trusting God Can Transform Your Life

Post #14 Fear Why Are We Afraid?

Post #15  Does God Still Answer Prayer?

Post #16 How To Trust God When The Going Gets Tough

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How To Trust God When Life Gets Tough

How To Trust God When The Going Gets Tough

Hello! I’m so glad you’re here! There’s a chill in the air this morning so I invite you to pull up a chair, grab a cup of something warm, and join me for a visit.

If you’re new to the blog, you’ve joined us in the midst of a personal experience story about how to trust God when life throws you a serious curve ball. You are more than welcome to jump right in here! But I would like to encourage you to go back at least four posts to the start of the real estate purchase part of the story. Or even at the beginning of the “Miracles Series”. It will help this post make more sense. But you are more than welcome to start right here!

If you decide to read the earlier posts there are links at the end of this post.

For you that have been following along, I have a favor to ask. If you’re enjoying this story, please leave a comment. Even if it’s just one word! That way I know you’re reading it! And hopefully enjoying it!

Also, if you have trouble posting your comment please let me know! Please send me an email to kristi@kristiross.com and let me know! Some people are having trouble posting comments. THANK YOU!!

Ok, let’s get back to our story!!

The Still Small Voice

From last week’s post you know that “still, small, voice” deep down inside moved me to check out a real estate listings website which led me to finding the place with the trees I’ve been admiring for several years.

But it was way out of my price range. And the sellers real estate agent said they would NOT accept an offer for lower than their purchase price.

But I made a lower offer anyway. Not a low-ball offer, but a solid, value based offer.

The property had been on the market for a couple years and the owners had already received some offers, but had not accepted them.

Before they listed the property for sale, the owners had prayed for the “right person” to buy their place. None of the previous offers felt “right“.

Months earlier I had prayed for God’s perfect place for me here in the Cortez area.

When I came to look at the property and stepped out of the car crying because I had found the beautiful trees I had admired for years,

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they felt I would love the place and I was “the right person”.

But they still countered my offer.

We countered back.

And they took that offer!

But The Deal Was A Long Way From Done

Now that I had a contract I could see if I could get financing.

But that was going to take a miracle.

Between my business tanking with the economy, Delta County not being able to renew my contract, and rentals that had been vandalized and sat empty for months, my credit worthiness was in the . . . well . . .  I’ll keep it mildly clean . . . the toilet.

Normally, to buy a house you have 20% down, and get a mortgage. Right? Well that was not going to happen for me. Back when I thought I was going to be homeless because my roommate moved back to Delta County, I had been scrambling and found a farm loan program that would work if, and that’s a BIG if, the property was ag, and everything fit together perfectly.

The loan application was almost an inch thick! But I bravely worked through it. When I turned it in the loan officer immediate had a list of additional information he needed to just get started.

I worked diligently to gather the additional information.  And frankly, if it hadn’t been for an incredibly generous friend, and believe it or not, my ex-husband, the loan would never have happened. But with their generous help I was able to get a couple big items that popped up on my credit report paid off.

That really seemed to make a difference with my loan officer. It started to look like this was a possibility. But there were so many issues I didn’t get my hopes up. At all!

I just prayed over it every day and asked for God’s will with the purchase and all dealings associated with it.

Learning How To Trust God and His Timelines

On a normal contract to purchase there is a timeline. The specified dates are set and agreed upon for each the necessary components needed to complete the sale/purchase. Each task was tied to a date and those dates are agreed upon before the contract is signed.

The first issue to rear its ugly head with the timeline turned out to be because of the lender. The Farm Credit Agency didn’t know if they were even going to get funded for 2015.

Talk about bursting your bubble!

All that work on the contract, diligent work on the loan application, getting old bills cleaned up, only to have every thing put on hold for a month because of the government.

We signed the contract in early November, but the government didn’t approve the 2015 ag service budget until the end of January. By then we had missed several deadlines and had to change all the dates.

The sellers real estate agent was not pleasant about it, but every time there was an issue the seller and I were able to work everything out and come to an amicable agreement.

This irritated the seller’s agent immensely.

Things were finally moving along and everything looked good, until I tried to get commitments from the surrounding neighbors for the additional irrigation water the sellers had been using.

One neighbor had sold the two shares the sellers had been using and the other neighbor simply didn’t trust a “newby” and wouldn’t let me use it.

I finally located additional water and agreed to lease it, if the sale went through.

Things were once again moving forward.

Until we got to the appraisal back.

There was a problem with the boundary lines on the plat map. It didn’t match the survey on record.

The owner said he had paid for a plat map update and he was not going to provide a survey.

This was a big problem. I was not going to buy property that didn’t match the legal records.

The lender would not fund the loan if the situation wasn’t corrected.

It was the sellers agent’s responsibility to get the paperwork corrected, but she was having plastic surgery of some sort and couldn’t be bothered with the details.

So I went to work.  I worked with the County Planner, the Assessor, the County Land Use Department, the County Attorney, the surveyor . . .

You get the picture.

On Tuesday I was finally able to get the surveyor to sign off on the correct information.  The closing was scheduled for Friday morning.

Miraculously it looked like the deal might actually go through.

But late Wednesday afternoon my lender called and said neither the title company or the sellers agent had called him to confirm the closing. So no funds had been requested. It took two days to request and wire in the funds. There was no way to close on Friday.

The sellers agent went ballistic!

Add to all this, we were still at a stalemate over who was paying for the survey.

I gave up.

My sister and I had a long talk about it. There were several times throughout the course of this ordeal that we were both ready to throw in the towel and then some miraculous thing would happen and the disaster of the day would smooth over and the deal would be back on again.

Was I being tested? Was this an exercise in learning to trust God more?

But the cost of the survey and now, no funds were more than I could take.

I told her apparently this is not meant to happen.

I was tired of the fighting, tired of the stress.

I was done.

The deal was done.

Or was it???

You’ll have to come back next week and find out!

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Have a Great and Godly day!

And remember to trust God!

Previous Miracle Posts:

Post #1  How To Experience  Miracles in Your Life

Post #2  Who Wants Miracles In Their Life?

Post #3  What Happens When Miracles Don’t Look Pretty

Post #4  How Tragedy Can Create Miracles

Post #5  When Miracles Bring Transformation

 Post #6  What Do Miracles Look Like

Post #7  Are You In Need Of A Miracle?

Post #8  Where Can You Find A Miracle

Post #9  Miracles Keep Coming

Post #10 How To Step Into The Miracle Zone

Post #11    3 Simple Steps to Miracles In Your Life
Post #12   3 Steps to Holiday Miracles and Peace
Post #13   How Trusting God Can Transform Your Life

Post #14 Fear Why Are We Afraid?

Post #15  Does God Still Answer Prayer?

 

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New Concept in Building Self Confidence

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His unconditional love held Him here.

No Sermon

Church was great today. There was no sermon. But boy did I get to work on building my  self confidence!

And actually there WAS a sermon but it was interactive and involved the entire congregation. The pastor talked about how the trustees had challenged the entire church to fast and pray in September.  Many of us took the challenge. Some fasted, or did not eat, a certain item all month. Others fasted one meal a day.  Some of us fasted an entire day several times throughout the month.  Others fasted from an activity, like TV. Whatever the Lord laid on their heart, they did, or . . . didn’t do.

What happened?

The interactive part began when the pastor asked what everyone’s experience was. The board of trustees shared what the time of fasting and prayer had taught them, and then they opened it up for the church to share. Several people went to the front to tell their story.  It was an incredible time of of praise and sharing!  One of which was my Step-Mom, Kay.  She spoke with such grace and self confidence she motivated me to tell about what God has been doing in my life lately.

Sitting in the pew I prayed and was prepared to tell the people about how God had used my fasting and prayer time in this blog, and ask for prayer for a speaking conference I’m headed to in a week. I went to the front and sat down to wait my turn. The man sitting next to me leaned over and told me the blog posts were speaking to him and how much he appreciated them. It touched me so deeply I started to cry.

Right after which, of course, it was my turn to speak. But I was so shook up from the wonderful things the gentleman had said, I couldn’t pull myself back together. I was nervous about telling people about my writing, but to already be crying when I stepped up there was a mess! I was shaking like a leaf, stuttered, stammered, and embarrassed. And then it got worse!

Grace, Lessons, and Self Confidence

By the grace of God I was finally able to get everything out, and even remembered to tell them the name of the blog. Talk about being emotional! But it was so good for me. Normally, I can talk to anyone about anything. But today the Lord humbled me, and reminded me I have to lean on Him, especially when things get tough.

Isn’t it interesting how God can take any situation and use it for His good, for a lesson, or a growth experience for us?

I love that about Him.

Trust me, learning to praise Him in the midst of an uncomfortable experience has been one of my hardest lessons. But also the most rewarding.

Have you ever had something like that happen?

Have you grown because of a difficult situation in your life?

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